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It combines the contradictions of a heart that refuses to release a wound that has inhabited it for months... a wound that makes it oscillate between the love of a stormy childhood and the love of mature youth.

Between the violence of the first and the tenderness of the second.... Between the pieces of the first and the containment of the second... There is a heart whose only sin is that he loved him with all that blackness.... And he promised one day to take it away from him...
To absorb him little by little... without realizing... that between them he was taking his lover out of the darkness.... He was drowning in it very slowly... as moving sand tightened him... to make it difficult for him to break free.

- " do you know?! "
He whispered softly... to silence the fatal weakness of his manhood... to gather his strength... to reveal, to go on with a choke that swept his heart for a year without refusing to leave him "Do you know... that I was looking for you in every one I encountered.... I slept The most beautiful and most charming women... But you always came to my mind... Like a dove... But you were not carrying peace for myself... You used to visit me to remind you that it was just an illusion from you.... I was looking for your smallest details in them... “He raised his eyes…..not far from the room in front of him….” And when I chose her…. She was the opposite of you…..Shining like the rays of the spring sun. Just before his other thoughts invaded... "I hate her because she's not you and I love her because she's your opposite... She made me despise myself.... and I look at the reflection of my image in her dead... She's full of sadness and pain..... and The harshest understanding and containment... She stayed... She didn't leave me... But I hurt her again and I compare her to you...." He wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his shirt..... His bare chest rose and fell at a violent pace.
- "I hear her sobbing now and she's crying for me..... while I'm crying.
As a despicable man whose manhood has shed blood and still yearns for you.... I hate you and love you because you are..... and I love her and I hate her because she is not you..." He laughed with pain-laden sarcasm..." Do you understand me because I no longer understand myself. .... How can I believe that I am cheating on you with her... when the opposite is what happens..."