Robert Bondoc

Hello, I can tell you many things about myself, but two things are really important, the first is that I hate human society in almost all its aspects, among people who hate other people because according to them that is what the most important book of history teaches. story, a book in which the absolute truth is contained, to people who hate their neighbor just because they are of a different color from their own there is everything. But my hatred for society is equal to my hatred for the system, the school system for example, between grades that only create anxiety and toxic competition, teachers who are free to do what they like, the school system has only negative factors, the mere fact that it is called school makes me shudder, school is a term that indicates a place of comparison, a place where you can learn from a person more qualified than you, and instead it is used to indicate useless anxiety, frustration, and in some cases even abuse of all kinds.
There is a small possibility that my hatred comes from the second thing I wanted to tell you, I have a "disease" called schizophrenia, well yes I am schizophrenic. I cannot tell you about my situation in a satisfactory way, but I can tell you that I suffered the pain of hell for a few months, I remember well the voices of my acquaintances who insulted me, I remember the fact that I had constant panic attacks due to which I almost I couldn't breathe anymore, but above all, I remember the inability to discern reality, I never knew for sure what was true and what was false, it was more or less like when you're drunk, in certain moments, the happiest moments, I thought I dreaming, I thought it was all in my head, it's a unique sensation, I perceived as if the world around me existed for the sole purpose of making fun of me.